Evidence of the Affair

by Taylor Jenkins Reid

Do you ever feel like your life got away from you somehow? Lately, it feels like my whole life has a similar feeling to when you check the clock on a Saturday and realize it’s already half past four.

I just don’t understand how I got here.

Often, I feel overwhelmed by this sinking feeling in my heart that I will never be enough.

I’ve always been struck by the idea that you can’t be all that happy something has returned if it doesn’t go away in the first place. But what if the thing goes away and never comes back?

Sometimes I think mine might turn to stone any minute now, and yet every time I see you I soften, reminded of how you still choose kindness over anger at every step.

You gave me hope and perspective and confidence. Right before you gave me my baby.