Evidence of the Affair

by Taylor Jenkins Reid

It is funny the crazy things our brains make up to save us from the truth.

I wish I’d had someone to talk

I guess I find it pretty easy to look like nothing is happening when everything has changed.

You did things to me no one has done before.

You are the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thought I have as I go to bed.

It is as if I have lived with a hard shell all over my body and you have cracked it and it has all fallen off. I am fresh again.

Do you ever feel like your life got away from you somehow?

Lying has just become so much easier than telling the truth. I don’t remember when things got so hard. But life has been a matter of keeping our heads above water for years now.

I feel overwhelmed by this sinking feeling in my heart that I will never be enough.

“May we meet in another life.”

I’ve always been struck by the idea that you can’t be all that happy something has returned if it doesn’t go away in the first place.

Is it corny to say my heart feels like an eternal December with no April in sight?

Sometimes, I swear, I’m invisible.

But with you, I felt like I could talk, finally. Talk about anything and everything.

It seems as if you see me exactly as I wish to be seen. There is no greater gift than that.

You are the second half of my heart nowadays,

You are a revelation. And beside you, I could feel nothing but peace.

“I will never love anyone the way I love you. Never.”

August