Evidence of the Affair

by Taylor Jenkins Reid

It is funny the crazy things our brains make up to save us from the truth.

I guess I find it pretty easy to look like nothing is happening when everything has changed.

Every month that passes feels like a new opportunity, at least at the beginning.

Do you ever feel like your life got away from you somehow? Lately, it feels like my whole life has a similar feeling to when you check the clock on a Saturday and realize it’s already half past four.

Lying has just become so much easier than telling the truth. I don’t remember when things got so hard. But life has been a matter of keeping our heads above water for years now.

Do I ever feel insecure? Oh boy. How much time do you have?

Often, I feel overwhelmed by this sinking feeling in my heart that I will never be enough.

It seems as if you see me exactly as I wish to be seen. There is no greater gift than that.

But getting to know you—being with you—was the beginning of me understanding just how lost I was in my own life.