A Lily in the Light

by Kristin Fields

focused. If you can dance through this, Esme, you can dance through anything.”

Good people can do bad things, and bad people can do good things, so maybe it depends on the choices we make. Even good people can do bad things for good reasons.”

I don’t have to feel bad, she reminded herself, for living the life I was given.

You’re so fucked up inside, a symphony of misery.

I missed you so much, but I lived my life anyway. I made you into a make-believe friend so everything I did or didn’t do would be OK. I forgot you were ever a real person with real feelings, pain, dreams, because there wasn’t room for you, Lily.

easier to push and push and push until her body was physically beat than to feel that missing piece of her life.

This is why, she thought bitterly, it was better to leave people behind before they disappointed her.

It hurt to push herself from the floor when all she wanted was to stay down,