Obviously, I’ve seen you feel ashamed of me in certain situations, and still do see that. It’s hard, because it touches on aspects of myself that I’m painfully aware of – the way I can sometimes not be there inside myself; the way I can criticize things that I haven’t thought of myself; preferring the role of someone who reads Adorno rather than actually reading Adorno. Mediocrity combined with poor self-awareness and big ambitions doesn’t come out very well.
