“You can’t quit,” he said. “If they think you are even slightly pulling away or having doubts, they do something to you. And they know. You can’t hide doubts from them. They give an order and if you hesitate, that’s it. For a while I knew I had to get out but I also had to wait for my chance, because I would have only one chance, and if I didn’t make it that would be it. You can’t tell anyone. You can’t confide in anyone. You have to have a plan. My plan was to take a bus to Mexico City and find some group, human rights or Green Cross, and tell them everything and ask for protection.”
