The Deeper the Water the Uglier the Fish

by Katya Apekina

“Shame is useless unless it motivates you to do better. Usually it does no such thing. It only sucks up energy.

It must have been horrible for him to create me and then lose control of the narrative in this way.

physicists say that some particles exist only when they are being watched. an electron that isn’t leaping from one orbit to another like a flea, or that isn’t being prodded by a scientist, ceases to be. i think this is what happened to me. i ceased to exist.