Someone Else's Ocean

by Kate Stewart

“So, I’m expecting like dirty French maid and millionaire boss or something juicy like that.” “Okay.” “And I was right.” “Sounds good.” “Except what the captain really meant was a role reversal.” My eyes widened. “Oh?” Her lips were trembling as she fessed up. “He came out in heels and a frilly frock.”

Omg lmao

Instead of continuing to live a life I couldn’t live, I chose me.”

Always choose yourself

And so, I’m here living someone else’s life, in someone else’s house staring at someone else’s ocean.”

🙁

“Don’t invite me into your life, Koti, or your heart, or your bed because I’m a selfish man right now and I’ll take you up on it without a second thought. If you move a single inch closer to me, I’m going to fuck you. And as much as we both want that, we both don’t need it. I will use you and it’s not because I don’t think you’re beautiful, or intelligent or worth more. It’s because right now, I’m incapable of being anything other than the man that uses you. And because I do think you are worthy of better, I’m not going to let it happen. So, goodnight.”

Atleast he recognizes that

“Be simple and do whatever the hell it is you have to do to make yourself happy.”

Yes

“what’s inside of you is a heart that is dying to live, and your head is too afraid to let you do it fully, the way you deserve. It’s the most tragic thing I’ve ever seen. You’re a prisoner of your own making.”

Ugh

I was weeks away from thirty years old and had just found my first love. And my soulmate. But not my forever.

Hate that for her

She was my golden shore after the shipwreck that was my life and she’d loved me with her whole heart, only to let me break it.

🙁