If Only I Could Tell You

by Hannah Beckerman

Such small battles won when they all knew she’d already lost the war.

Happy. Audrey repeated the word in her head, wondering if there were as many definitions of it as there were people on the planet.

But when you’re little you don’t want a role model. You just want

But cancer was an unreliable business partner, constantly making ever greater demands for less favourable

returns.

Jess realised that she had spent all these years being angry with Lily because it was easier to feel anger than it was to feel grief.

Once upon a time Audrey had believed that her life was set on a clear path and that any diversion led to a complete derailment.

Only now did she realise that those moments of change were not an ending but a beginning: a chance for a different kind of life, a different kind of journey, a different

form of hap...