Your bitterness is caused by the notion that these men form one all-powerful, critical OZ that thinks you’re not good enough. Everything you do during the day backs this up. You are rejectable. Look at how you fuck things up. Look how not cute enough you are. Look how grumpy. Look how not attractive your attitude can be. You have to quiet the bad OZ voices, during the day and at night. Stop pushing back against a phantom. You are not a ghost; this creation of yours is. Maybe it’s an echo of something from your childhood. Maybe it’s just a bad cognitive habit you’ve had for a while.
