By my fourth day, I had already begun to regret taking the job. . . . The truth is, I’ve never felt quite like I could bring my full self to the job. I never felt like I could speak freely. I feel like I have to play a role. I myself have become more conservative in how I operate. Not in my thinking, but how I move through the world. It’s almost like an expectation that you yourself get in line. Not even an expectation—it’s required. You have to assimilate in order to be able to move anything inside of a foundation. You have to drink the Kool-Aid and operate like they do, move like they do.6
