The Sweetest Kind of Poison

by Katie Wismer

I deserve better but I prefer you

I can’t love you into being a good person

because of you I have the urge to break things I want to see glass shatter into a million pieces and feel ribs crack beneath my hands because of you I have the urge to scream I want to scream as loudly as I can until my throat tears open and fills with blood because of you I have the urge to drown I want to cry until my tears fill the room around me and swallow me whole but even then I don’t think it would be enough even then I wouldn’t have any peace even then your ghost wouldn’t leave me

I think it’s really beautiful the way you smile around your tears and laugh even when it hurts like knives in your stomach

he may have stolen your heart but don’t let him steal your light

always remember life exists outside of this moment this isn’t how it will always be you won’t always be sad it won’t always be hard I promise you you’re going to be okay

you were just two planets who tried to make it work but your orbits will always be just out of sync

stop comparing yourself to the filtered photographs proudly splashed across social media of course no one posts a picture of them crying alone on the bathroom floor at two in the morning but that doesn’t mean you’re the only one who’s done it