Pillow Thoughts II: Healing the Heart

by Courtney Peppernell

My hands hurt from trying to distract myself in the pages of a book.

I waited all day for someone who I thought felt the same

They broke your heart, so you found yourself reading texts and letters to piece together where it all went wrong. You have sleepless nights and thoughts pushing you to the limit. Because heartbreak can also mean a broken spirit.

Sometimes I worry that I won’t find someone. That the person who deserves all this love I have to give is out there with someone else. I worry that I won’t find a love to believe in, that I won’t find a hand that fits with mine. I don’t know how I can miss someone I’ve never met, but I do.

Remember all the plans we made? Was I naive to think we’d get that far?

You can’t skip chapters, that’s not how life works. You have to read every line, meet every character. You won’t enjoy all of it. Hell, some chapters will make you cry for weeks. You will read things you don’t want to read, you will have moments when you don’t want the pages to end. But you have to keep going. Stories keep the world revolving. Live yours, don’t miss out.

You can’t force your heart to feel a certain way. But you can respect people. You can be gentle when letting someone go.