He began to talk about his dreams and ambitions. He said that he felt driven by his mother’s pacifist idealism and the profound importance of foreign affairs. Accumulating money and joining exclusive clubs to play golf did not interest him, he insisted. He had lived “in the arena,” and that’s where he wanted to be, even if it meant shortening his life. He would do anything, make any sacrifice, anything, he said, “except see a shrink.”33
