First, since I pride myself on a strong intellect, I’ve resisted accepting that I’m powerless over any mental process. On the contrary, it is in the nature of the ego to turn anything to its advantage. Even the public disclosure of my addictive patterns has served to reassure me of my sincerity and honesty and “courage.” Audiences greet such self-disclosure with nods, appreciative smiles and applause. But real courage does not lie in speaking about addiction; it resides in actively doing something about it—
