His Garden: Conversations With A Serial Killer

by Anne K. Howard

1) When I read about the killer who

girlfriend worked. He stared glumly at the filthy surroundings, trying not to think about Nilsa’s activities. He did not like their lifestyle. In fact, he despised it. But how else could he and Nilsa score drugs? The couple’s shared habit was not cheap. In July 2003, they were each smoking about 20 to 30 pieces of crack per day and shooting up

August 2003. The motel’s manager took him

ever saying goodbye. Sanchez started to cry

visit

phlebotomist,

married to his brother Randy, “the nicest guy in the family.”

saying goes, “Denial isn’t just a river in Egypt.” Human beings possess a remarkable capacity for closing their minds to the most obvious faults about themselves. We often perceive the alternative of facing the truth, which most observers already see despite our defensive protestations, as just too humiliating, disempowering or a combination of both. And so, we demonstrate over the course of our respective lifetimes a vast array of self-sabotaging character flaws that often go with us to the grave.

corrupt Mark Furman planting a bloody glove at O.J.’s Brentwood estate.

announced

he showed absolutely no concern for his victims and he has told me that he would have gone on to rape and murder women if he were

stopped. Moreover, he continues to demonstrate a confounding lack of empathy regarding the anguish that his victims experienced at his hands in their final hours, for example, he stated that Diane Cusack either “enjoyed it” when he used the shock absorber to pleasure her, or she “did a good job at faking it.” Does that mindset define him as an evil man? How could it not?

remorse over killing his victims, he does feel great remorse over making the family members suffer. Again, the inconsistency is part of a distorted worldview.

So he can feel remorse for the victims’s families but not for the actual victim which shows how human emotions work in a sense bc it’s his brain that is the problem

subsequent letter.

Bill is by no means a “typical” serial killer—if there is even such a thing. According to the FBI, a serial killer is someone who commits at least two murders over more than a month with an emotional cooling off period in between. The motive is psychological, often with sadistic sexual overtones. In Bill’s case, he was psychologically motivated to rape out of pent-up rage, and it appears that the sole motive behind all but one of the killings was to conceal the evidence of the rape.

To this day, Bill is unwilling to see his victims as human beings at the time he murdered them. Taking that leap into the land of empathy is just too big a threat to his cognitive schemata.

So he can’t see his victims as good people or mothers bc it goes against the reasonings he did what he did bc they were “prostitution whores” who were already putting themselves at risk being on the streets. He’s unable to see them as victims bc he’s made his mind up that they weren’t going to live long anyway or likely conduct petty crimes so why would he see them any less than trash on the street

killed them and justified it by saying the streets are cleaner. I know that they were all good people at one time. I couldn’t think about that and I put it out of my mind. I couldn’t humanize them.