“I am just beginning to realize how much my upbringing has had and still has all these effects on my personality and my approach to life that I don’t even notice a lot of the time. I still have this urge to be the kind of person that I think this community would have wanted me to be, even though I don’t believe in the religion part anymore. Just trying to be this very respectable, appropriate, wholesome person who follows all the rules and does everything right.
