My sister told me she felt like we were back at square one. No, I told her, it’s worse than square one, because now it’s in my lungs and I’ve already tried chemo regimens that haven’t seemed to be that effective. In addition to having already tried the two leading chemotherapy treatments for colorectal cancer, I am tired now, so tired of fighting, so tired of having any kind of hope and being painfully disappointed. I am so tired.