darkest moments of her journey? “I wasn’t afraid because I had no expectations at that point,” she said. “I didn’t really think. When I thought about the future, whether it was the next day, the next month, or the next year, it was just blank whiteness. There was nothing beyond that moment, that second even.” In order to get through the ordeal, my mother essentially banned hope from her consciousness so she wouldn’t be incapacitated by fear.
