Mom has always been good at pretending things are fine when she doesn’t want to apologize. But I don’t need an apology. Not anymore. I have my whole life ahead of me—there isn’t room in it for anger about things I don’t have the power to change. I’ve mourned the loss of the mother I imagined could exist. I accept the one I have will never be the one I need. And that’s okay—because I will be the person I need. I will be the one I can depend on, the one who has the power to make my life better or worse.