conclusion: my hypothesis was, in some ways, correct: most people did not stay. some people tried to cure me, and got frustrated when they couldn’t. some people didn’t believe me, and got scared off when I had my first breakdown. some people simply got bored. but not all of them. and I know I shouldn’t rely on love from other people. but if someone else can love me, that means it’s possible for me to do it as well. conclusion: I am lovable.
