I spent so long trying not to drown. coughing up saltwater feasting on adrenaline kicking my legs, even when my calves cramped even when my feet became numb even when I realized no lifeboat was on its way. I am still in the ocean. there is still no lifeboat. but I am not drowning. my head is tilted back. my legs are lifted up to the surface. I see pink clouds in the sky. if you think you are drowning, just remember: you float in water.
