The Infinite Pieces of Us

by Rebekah Crane

I guess all things are nothing at the start.

where’d you go? I ask the stars. They don’t answer me. I don’t expect them to. Answers don’t come that easily.

I understand that one plus one equals two, and two is more than one. My math skills far outreach addition. But more doesn’t always equal love.

Complex Math Problem: How do you solve the messes you can’t see? In other words—Is fitting in just covering up who you really are in hopes that people don’t notice?

I am no longer a whole number. I carry a decimal now. Each box in my room is just a reminder of my remainder. The problem is, I can’t figure out if I’m less than or more than I was before. I know I’m not the same.

But when she laughs, the air in the room starts to smell like warm, clear sunshine.

“How is it possible to feel a picture? You’re one-dimensional.”

trust is handing over a piece of your heart to someone and believing they’ll hold it as delicately as you do.

“Perfection is overrated,” Color says. “What’s the fun in that? It’s our holes that make us interesting.”

sometimes it isn’t easy to look the truth in the eye. It’s easier to run.

“Truth—the universe is always speaking, but people are too consumed with their own voices to hear her.”

“She told me to get used to it. She told me that being a parent meant being perpetually afraid that something might happen to the one thing you don’t want to lose. That every day you’ll worry and think about this possibility to the point of madness, until all that’s left is to throw your hands up and have faith that it’s all going to be OK.”

“Faith and bullshit wear the same clothes. It’s impossible to know which is which.”

“You can’t turn around, love. That’s not how time works.”

Shade in the desert is as abundant as truth is in this world of liars.

Why is it so easy to want love for other people but not to accept it for ourselves?

Just because something is over doesn’t mean a person lets go.

Memories are just a mind manipulation to keep you tethered to something that’s no longer there. Free yourself and let it go.”