Sinner (Priest, #2)

by Sierra Simone

They have words for men like me—playboy. Womanizer. Skirt chaser.

Ah. You're a whore

I’m a sinner with a dimpled smile and perfect hair, and I know how to make sin feel like heaven.

Someone's got big balls. Jesus christ

Elijah

Baby doll reference?! I miss that wattpad fic sm :((((((

“You brought a date?” I ask. “Where is he?”

YESSSS ELIJAH GET THAT BUSSY

“I am not preening,” I say with some indignation. “I’m Sean Bell, and Sean Bell does not preen.”

OH MY GOD YOU'RE PREENING

“Cheating? Moi?” I put a hand to my heart as if staggered by her accusation, although I’m actually having more fun than I’ve had in ages. “I would never.”

Sean you are literally 12 istg

“And I do want to get to know you better. I want to know if you scream or if you moan when you come; I want to know if you prefer my mouth or my hands; I want to know if you like it deep and slow or fast and hard.”

DUDE CHILL but like... me next

And then suddenly Kesha is singing from my pocket. (Yes, I like Kesha. Who doesn’t? She’s great.)

You fucking twink omg

Do you actually even listen to me when I talk?”

Me when I zone out woohoo, maladaptive daydreaming!!!

“I’ve wanted to fuck you since the moment I saw you today,” I say, watching her blanch with surprise at my blunt lewdness. “I can’t stop thinking about pushing that jumper up to your waist and nuzzling into your cunt until my face smells like you. I want to bite your tits through that white shirt. I want to see that cross necklace sliding around your collarbone as I find out if you prefer two fingers or three.”

DEAR LORD BRO

but I’d definitely draw a dick on his face if I ever found him passed out.

Sean istg you're literally 12

“Well, I do feel like I should mention that I think virginity in general is an arbitrary construct designed by men as a system of control and fear. And it’s heteronormative. And limiting, because why do certain sexual acts preserve virginity and some destroy it? What if I fucked a dildo every night, but I hadn’t fucked a man? Why doesn’t anal sex count? And what if I was with someone and penetration wasn’t an option, for any number of biological or emotional or identity reasons—would that make our sex less somehow? I’d be a virgin forever?”

Damn. Clock it sis

The most selfless people, the most driven people, they need permission to take care of themselves; they need someone who will put them first because they won’t do it for themselves.

Felt that

Of course I’m only joking that I want to spend the rest of my life with the most beautiful, fascinating, sexy woman I’ve ever met. It’s all a joke. Ha ha ha. Hilarious. Oh my God, I’m so fucked.

On a scale from 1 to 10, my friend, you're fucked!!!

The idea of Zenny on all fours nearly gives me a heart attack, so in the interest of my health and mortality,

LMAO

“I can’t get angry. If I get angry, then I’m the Angry Black Woman. If I admit to having my feelings hurt, then I’m being too sensitive. If I ask for people to treat me thoughtfully, then I’m being aggressive. If I joke back, then I’m being impertinent or sassy. If I cry, then I’m hyperemotional. If I don’t react at all, I’m intimidating or cold. Do you see? There’s not a way I can react where I win. I can’t win.”

Jesus christ :((((

Am I in love with Zenny?

How did it take you this long to realise bro

It’s too soon, but I love her. She’s Elijah’s little sister and much too young for me, and she only wants me for sex, but I love her. And she’s going to leave me for her God, but I love her.

That doesn't mean she doesn't love you

God, the fucking irony of a sinner loving a nun. It’s agony. I’m dying. And as I’m both alight and aflame with loving her, these splashes of thought keep coming out of nowhere, like raindrops on a sunny day.

Ironic indeed

“Sean, faith and belief are the practices of committing a life in the face of no answers. God is and always will be outside of human comprehension. And loving Her is an act; it’s not stubbornly repeating creeds and trying to force Her into modern expectations or rational paradigms. She’ll never fit in the same boxes we apply to science and reason; She’s not meant to. And to try to force it only breeds spiritual violence in the end.”

FINALLY SOMEONE WHO'S ACTUALLY READ THE BIBLE

Damocles

Sleep token reference???

Belief is this. Praying when you don’t feel like it, when you don’t know who or what is listening; it’s doing the actions with the trust that something about it matters. That something about it makes you more human, a better human, a human able to love and trust and hope in a world where those things are hard. That is belief. That is the point of prayer. Not logging a wish list inside a cosmic ledger, not bartering for transactional services. You do it for the change it works on you and on those around you; the point of it is…itself. Nothing more and nothing less.

I'm gonna cry bro wtf

however much weed you vape in your hotel room, since you can’t legally drink yet.”

Gimme some rn?!?!

“And here I thought Sean Bell would never have an objection to a woman taking her clothes off.”

CACKLING

“I made us a bed,” he declares, like he’s just hunted a giant animal and dragged it to our doorstep to provide for me. “Behold!”

Actually such a child... I love him, tho

I hate Christmas music after Christmas. It’s like leaving a used condom on after sex. Or eating cold French fries. It shouldn’t be done.

SOMEONE WHO GETS IT