using my well-honed ability to turn a phrase to tear down an actress who wasn’t present. It was well honed because I used to feel I had to do it for survival, but now it was like I was killing for sport. As I ripped this absent woman to shreds, I felt like I was being fed as these people laughed and looked at me with faces that said, “More, more.” When I was done, there was nothing left of my target. “How did that change your life?” Coach asked me after my performance. “Excuse me?” “Did you get her guy?” she asked. “Did you get her job? Is your house bigger now?” I looked down at the ground,
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