More Than This (More Than, #1)

by Jay McLean

“Look,

I just don’t think you should let bad people dictate whether you have a good time.

He’s not the hearts-and-flowers kind of guy—he’s the heart-and-soul kind, and fuck if every girl would rather have that than the flowers.

“You, Jake Andrews, are not a shitty person—not even a little bit.”

And I think, for just a second, that maybe my heart can learn to love again.

“Why does he get to call you Kayla, and everyone else calls you Micky?” I shrug. “Because my family called me Kayla.”

It’s at this moment that I know. I don’t just think it anymore—I know it. I love this girl. I’m in love with this girl.

“It’s just you. It’s only ever been just you. It will always only ever be just you.”

intimate—like we’re more than whatever it is we are, more than this.

have half a dance routine made up for it. Thank you, One Direction, for breaking this awkward tension. If for nothing else, I will always remember that one song for bringing back the most important person in my life.

To have to be around the person you love, and not be able to love them, is the hardest thing to do.

I wish the world would leave me alone for just one minute, so I can gather the strength to get up and face it.

“Jake saw you at your worst. He was there when your life changed and your heart shattered. He was there to help you piece some of it back together. He’s seen it all, Micky. He’s seen you at your worst, and he still fell in love with you—like, truly the forever kind of love with you. And I’m sorry, because I think you’re making a mistake. Maybe you don’t need to be a complete person, or maybe you do. But maybe he’s it—maybe he’s the other half of you.”

“Your very first kiss with your prince will change your life. When your lips touch for the first time, the earth will feel like it has stopped moving, but at the same time the world around you spins. It’ll feel like fireworks in the night sky—a bright light in the darkness. You’ll feel your heart beat fast in your ears, but silence will surround you. When you pull apart and open your eyes and really see each other, you’ll know in that moment from that kiss that you’ve just let someone own a piece of your heart, and you’ll live happily ever after.”

I just don’t think you should let bad people dictate whether you have a good life.