More Than This (More Than, #1)

by Jay McLean

But it was also that feeling . . . That feeling of falling.

But it hurts less today than it did yesterday. Being here with them—it’s familiar, in a good way.

And I think, for just a second, that maybe my heart can learn to love again.

There’s no point in hating him, because it’s so much harder to hate than to love someone.

“I feel like I’m starting to forget them, Jake—like they’re fading away, and I don’t want that.

But they’re all going . . . The memories are fading, and sometimes . . .” She stops to close her eyes and take a breath. “Sometimes, when I close my eyes, I can’t see my family anymore.

To have to be around the person you love, and not be able to love them, is the hardest thing to do.

want to shut out the world around us and have us just be the way we are behind closed doors, where no one else can dictate who we are and what we feel.

The love that’s so instant and intense and easy, it feels like all the world’s forces collided and fate gave you a push, and you’re there, in front of the person who’s now a part of you. The world spins and your heart explodes, and you want nothing else at all in the entire universe as long as you can be with that one person all the time. When you’re not, you think about him until your mind is consumed, and it’s almost like you’re suffocating and drowning . . . But in a good way, because your love is all around you.

I wish the world would leave me alone for just one minute, so I can gather the strength to get up and face it.

“Jake saw you at your worst. He was there when your life changed and your heart shattered. He was there to help you piece some of it back together. He’s seen it all, Micky. He’s seen you at your worst, and he still fell in love with you—like, truly the forever kind of love with you. And I’m sorry, because I think you’re making a mistake. Maybe you don’t need to be a complete person, or maybe you do. But maybe he’s it—maybe he’s the other half of you.”

I want to remember every single piece of him in the last few moments we have together. So I open my eyes, and he’s there.

“Your very first kiss with your prince will change your life. When your lips touch for the first time, the earth will feel like it has stopped moving, but at the same time the world around you spins. It’ll feel like fireworks in the night sky—a bright light in the darkness.

I just don’t think you should let bad people dictate whether you have a good life.

“I think I’m done with the past, Jake. I think I just want my future.” I look at him, and he gets it. He knows what I mean. I just want him.