Inseparable

by Siobhan Davis

Life is just a flow of interconnecting moments in time. A combination of well-thought-out actions and spontaneous reactions. A sequence of events and people moving in and out of your personal stratosphere.

I miss my best friend, and I hate that a rift has formed in our seemingly unbreakable bond. Worse is I don’t understand how this has happened or why.

Nothing mattered except the connection we shared. Then we grew up, and everything turned to shit.

What I failed to understand then was there is no such thing as permanent. Everything can change in a heartbeat. The only thing that is guaranteed is in the moment.

“You’re the most important person in my world. For all time. Even when you think you aren’t, know that you are. Even when I can’t show you or say all I want to say, know that you are. Even if I leave, I’m still with you, in here.” He places his hand on top of my chest, where my heart is beating so erratically it threatens to escape my ribcage. “Like you’re in here.” He pats my hand, the one still being held protectively against his chest. “You’ll always be in here,” he whispers.

“None of those girls mean anything to me, but you, you’re … you’re everything.” “Then treat me like it!”

“Nothing is permanent, and everything changes even when you don’t want it to.”

You can be surrounded by people and still be the loneliest creature in existence.

He’d stop fighting for the dead girl with the dead heart. He’d finally realize what I’ve known these last five years: that I’m not worth fighting for. I never have been.

“You may have forgotten how to love yourself, but I haven’t. I love you,