“Look, we did our job and we did it well, and it needed doing even though we didn’t like it; but sometimes we just had to go above and beyond what was expected of us in order to avoid the killing.” And maybe by writing and publishing this article he is telling us that “this time, the time when I didn’t have to kill anybody, this is the time that I want to tell you about. This is the time that I want to be remembered for.”
