seemed to me that Rinpoche was making the opposite point: that I was in control of my spiritual situation, not God; that we had been given the tools for an expanded consciousness and it was up to us to use them, not simply wait around for death and salvation. I thought about this in my moldy motel room—just what Rinpoche had advised me not to do. Thought and considered and pondered and held the idea up to the light so I could examine it from several angles. I couldn’t stop myself from approaching the question this way because, after all, thinking and learning had been my path out of the
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