Sweet Bean Paste

by Durian Sukegawa

Can you imagine what it’s like for someone who can’t see or feel, to taste something sweet?’

I gave up on my own mother and I’m still a failure. Sorry to go on so much about myself, but this is who I am.

I can’t tell you how many times I wished I were dead. Deep down, I believed that a life has no value if a person is not a useful member of society. I was convinced that humans are born in order to be of service to the world and to others.

I began to understand that we were born in order to see and listen to the world. And that’s all this world wants of us. It doesn’t matter that I was never a teacher or a member of the workforce, my life had meaning.

If all you ever see is reality, you just want to die.