LOOKING BACK NOW, my discomfort with career and time and choices was the smoke of a deeper fire. An important part of me was covered and squirming. It had something to do with my faith. In doubts and questions. There were deep parts of me that were wounded by Christianity. There were also deep parts of me that loved Jesus and gave Him credit for everything good in my life. This created a tension. And because I was taught that salvation rested on belief, on saying the right words and believing
