A Course in Miracles: Based on the Original Handwritten Notes of Helen Schucman—Complete & Annotated Edition

by Helen Schucman

In the calm light of truth, let us recognize that you believe you have crucified God’s Son. 2You have not admitted this “terrible” secret, because you still wish to crucify him if you could find him. 3But the wish has hidden him from you because it is very fearful, and you are afraid to find him. 4You have handled this wish to kill yourself by not knowing who you are, and identifying with something else. 5You have projected guilt blindly and indiscriminately, but you have not uncovered its source. 6For the ego does want to kill you, and if you identify with it, you must believe its goal is yours. 6 We once said that the crucifixion is the symbol of the ego.11 2When it was confronted with the real guiltlessness of God’s Son, it did attempt to kill him, and the reason it gave was that guiltlessness is blasphemous to God.12 3To the ego, the ego is God, and guiltlessness must be interpreted as the final guilt which fully justifies murder. 4You will not yet understand that all your fear of this course stems ultimately from this interpretation, but if you will consider your reactions to it, you will become increasingly convinced that this is so.13