I could go no further. Physically it was impossible, and to know that brought a huge wave of relief. For someone who was so hard on themselves, who moved through life wondering whether they could perhaps ‘be’ something a little more than they were – there was nothing more I could be in that moment. Nothing more I wished to be. No one else on the planet I would rather be. There was no striving. No belief that the grass was greener. No envy, jealousy, no discontent, no ungratefulness. It was like nothing else I had ever experienced before. It wasn’t elation. Nor joy. In fact, I wasn’t entirely
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