“This isn’t a great time to talk about it.” “It’s just a simple question, Dad.” “Did she send you?” “No,” I lied. “I overheard her talking to the lawyers on the phone and I just wanted to hear it from you.” Is it madness that I still wanted Dad to find Mum attractive? That I protected him from the worst of her just in case it put him off her even more? Even though I was holding his new child? With another woman? I just didn’t want him to see Mum as a bitter, angry, terrified, pathetic, spurned mess…even though she was.
