Dear Aaron

by Mariana Zapata

If a little distance is all that it takes to tear a relationship apart, that should tell you something.

“You could’ve told me your mom and sister are the ugly ones in the family.”

The way he hugged the hell out of me would be something that sickness and death could never take away.

“I’m really damn happy to see you, Ruby.” His voice was quiet, not hesitant but more cautious. “I look at you and I can’t stop smiling. That’s all. You’re adorable.”

Looking back on it, it’s weird thinking about the moments you don’t realize are important. The sentences, the touches, the actions that seem so innocent in that second, you take them for granted. The words that make water into wine in the course of your life. But I would never forget the way his words made me feel. The way he made me feel right then.

“I was a goner from the first time you gave me hell.” Aaron smiled. “Maybe even before then.”

“You are so goddamn special, Ruby. I’ll tell you every day if I have to.”

“You’re not crazy. You’re the best, and you deserve better than me, but I hope you don’t care.”

“The idea of you being with somebody else… even just texting them… him… even before I saw your face or heard your voice, Rube… I don’t want you with anybody else. You’re my Ruby, and you have been for a long time.”