was out of control in a situation, the fear would make me very angry. In that anger I’d have control. People couldn’t hurt me.’ If John’s found happiness now it is, at least in part, because he’s subcontracted his need for control to God. ‘One of the biggest changes in my life is that I don’t feel fear much now,’ he told me. ‘The more you fill yourself with God, the less fear there is. And the less I’m in control and more I let God be in control, the more peaceful and patient I am.’
