Feeling self-congratulatory after a performance was not new to me, I was usually very pleased with myself regardless of how I’d done, but for the first time since The Lesson I knew that this performance hadn’t happened by chance or because of ‘my natural talent’; it had happened because I’d worked like a demon on it, I had been in control of what I was doing, it had not gone by like a blur. I kind of knew now what was good and what was not good about it and kind of knew why. The heady thought occurred that I may be making progress at last, I may at last be learning how to act.
