Restore Me (Shatter Me, #4)

by Tahereh Mafi

Juliette was the one who maintained these relationships; they were not for me. I never wanted any of this. I didn’t want this accountability.

I don’t care for the responsibility of friendships. I only wanted Juliette.

I wanted her love, her heart, her arms around me. And this was part of the price I paid for h...

I’ve been undone by emotion, over and over.

I have no peace. No purpose. How I wish I’d ripped this heart from my chest long ago.

I’m forced to look away. But when I do, I’m smiling. Because for the first time in my life, I actually like the way I look.

It’s been less than thirty seconds since she walked in, and I’m still trying and failing to take her in. She’s stunning.

“It’s nice to finally meet Warner’s girlfriend.” And then: “Oh, wait—I’m sorry. I meant ex-girlfriend.” I’m holding my breath as Juliette looks her up and down.

Juliette seems unimpressed. “You can call me the supreme commander of North America,” she says. And then walks away.

I feel an almost hysterical laughter build in my chest; I have to look down, force myself to keep a straight face.

“Warner, Castle, Kenji?” “Yeah?” “Yes, Ms. Ferrars?” I merely stare. “If we’re done here, I’d like to speak with the three of you alone, please.”

what’s the point of screaming if you’ll never be heard and no one will ever hear me in here. No one will ever hear me ever again.

It wasn’t two years of anything serious. It wasn’t even two years of continuous communication.”

We saw each other briefly and infrequently. It was purely physical. It wasn’t a real relationship—”

There’s a moment of perfect silence, and then— Juliette peels the dented bullet off her forehead. Tosses it to the ground.

Mass chaos.

Brendan falls to the ground with a sudden, horrifying gasp. Winston screams; catches his body.

there’s no time to do anything but hold my breath when, suddenly— She screams. Long. Loud. Violent.

And then, everyone.

They all drop dead.

Warner is on his knees, his hands cuffed behind his back

Castle is unconscious on the floor, blood running freely from his chest Winston is still screaming, even as someone drags him away

Brendan is dead Lily, Ian,...

still raging against my restraints. “What do you want from me?”

“I’m the supreme commander of Oceania,” the woman says to me, smiling. “Your father and I have come to take you home.”

M & E— All is well. We’ve found her a suitable family. No sign of powers yet, but we’ll keep a close eye on her.

She and Emmaline have had their memories expunged. They no longer ask about you. This will be my last update. P. Anderson.

I flip the photo over. Ella’s first day of school

Ella, Emmaline, and Nazeera. No more training wheels.

I gasp, the sound choking me as it leaves my chest.

Paris and Leila, visiting for Christmas And I freeze stunned feel the air leave my body.

It’s a picture of a little boy standing next to a little girl. She’s sitting in a stairwell. He looks at her as she eats a piece of cake.

I flip it over. Aaron and Ella is all it says.

no way no way no way

“Ella, honey, don’t you want to come outside? Your dinner is getting cold.”