becoming.

by Renaada Williams

the more i listen to myself the closer i am to the truth.

i expected you to fix me failing to realize soon after you left i would still be broken

go ahead talk about me in the worst way imaginable. just try to forgive yourself afterwards.

and when it was over i came up gasping for air as if i've forgotten how to breathe - the breakup

you told me to swallow my tongue not literally of course but you made it impossible to speak without being interrupted without sounding like i was not smart enough without ever feeling like you were listening and so, i ate it.

and just like that e v e r y t h i n g about you suddenly changed the way you looked the way you talked and even your actions because i no longer cared.

and if your heart says feel everything, thats EXACTLY what you do.

i don't want to remember the pain h o w e v e r i also don't want to forget

never stop talking about your journey there will be people who don't understand that it isn't about wanting to stay hurt its always about trying to figure out how not to be.

it was hard understanding that eventually it would stop eventually it wouldn't be so cold i knew it would be beautiful but somehow it seemed like it would never end. - the coldest winter

i kept going not because i wanted to trust me, all of me wanted to stop. i kept going because i deserved to know what not giving up on myself felt like.

there is so much beauty in growth change and practice. - pursuit

it will not happen overnight it may take days months or even years but in the end i promise it'll be worth it.

don't spend all of your time and energy giving someone else your life share yourself in portions enough to have some for them enough to still hold onto you.

understand that being strong is beautiful but so is vulnerability.

create your own meaning understand what feels good to you recognize what doesn't don't give in this is not it. love is not meant to be this exhausting.

you have to stop customizing yourself to fit someone who doesn't even deserve you.

nobody will ever be what you need if you are still learning what that is - acceptance

you owe it to yourself to be by yourself to love and value yourself to understand that you need time, time to know what you will and will not tolerate.

never forget to pick up the pieces no matter how old or useless they may seem they will still create a masterpiece. - to all the broken hearts

you have to be the light for yourself even when nobody else can see it.