“How did her campaign for sexual contact make me feel? Good question, Ernest, but is it germane to this investigation? “You’re not sure? What seems to be germane is what I did—that’s what I’m being judged for—not what I felt or thought. Nobody gives a shit about that in a lynching! But if you turn off the tape recorder for a couple of minutes, I’ll tell you. Consider it instruction. You’ve read Rilke’s Letters to a Young Poet, haven’t you? Well, consider this my letter to a young therapist. “Good. Your pen, too, Ernest. Put it down, and just listen for a while. You want to know how this
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