Why didn’t I get it? That has to do with my own issues. Ever since I was little and started to learn what it meant to love, I never understood that I had to love me too—otherwise, what was the point? If I wanted to join the rest of humanity, the only solution was gradually to reveal my secret. I would begin to construct what was in my internal blueprint. There was no other way I could go on. For me, it was a matter of life and death, and of pain.
