Shui Ling, you probably have no idea that I’ve spent the past eighteen months in full-on avoidance mode. I don’t know how else to go on. I’ve been throwing myself into busywork that surrounds me with people, then escaping into alcohol-induced numbness, among other diversions. It’s a cycle that helps me put one foot in front of the other. It’s not much comfort, but it’s all I have.
