Or maybe, just maybe, she wanted to love me, but what she gave me was a love with too much pride. That’s the kind of person she was. As far as intimacy went, she no longer had any desires or fantasies. What she had instead were crippling fears. She not only realized that she couldn’t afford to pay the price but she refused to. All of her energy went toward upholding the responsibilities of another intimate relationship, and so she refused to take up the same kind of romantic involvement elsewhere.
