Our Numbered Days

by Neil Hilborn

I think that the genes for being an artist and mentally ill aren’t just related, they are the same gene,

We both had parents that believed us when we said we weren’t ok, but mine could afford to do something about it.

Home is wherever people know our stories. Sam Cook

I use you, yes, to feel secure or loved, or like a tire wrapped in chains, so let us say at least that I do not use you abnormally. All of this is to say that, should you move here to live with me and the mental disorders I call friends and mental disorders, I will not lie to you. The sea is so wide and our boat is so small.

I probably want to die less than I say I do,

And when your fourth love leaves you, you will want to kill yourself but you won’t. You no longer think of suicide as a house you will build one day.

she loved me once, though it wasn’t for very long, though it was distracted, though it shouldn’t have happened, once, she loved me.