Girl, Interrupted

by Susanna Kaysen

Scar tissue has no character. It’s not like skin. It doesn’t show age or illness or pallor or tan. It has no pores, no hair, no wrinkles. It’s like a slipcover. It shields and disguises what’s beneath. That’s why we grow it; we have something to hide.

Hide nothing other people dont deserve it, do what's best for yourself.

Life was hellish, she knew that.

accurate

We might get out sometime, but she was locked up forever in that body.

poor baby

Suicide is a form of murder—premeditated murder. It isn’t something you do the first time you think of doing it. It takes getting used to. And you need the means, the opportunity, the motive. A successful suicide demands good organization and a cool head, both of which are usually incompatible with the suicidal state of mind.

Damn. Suicide has crossed my mind numerous times but I've never acted bc that means depression wins and that bitch is not a winner.

Actually, it was only part of myself I wanted to kill: the part that wanted to kill herself,

You don't want to die you just want a part of you to. The parts of your self that you hate they can make you crazy over yourself but that doesn't mean you should hurt yourself you deserve better.

The meat was bruised, bleeding, and imprisoned in a tight wrapping. And, though I had a six-month respite from thinking about it, so was I.

Did the hospital specialize in poets and singers, or was it that poets and singers specialized in madness?

madness and insanity spawn the best artists

When you’re sad you need to hear your sorrow structured into sound.

“Smile and the world smiles with you, cry and you cry alone,”

it's better to cry though rather than sitting with those emotions

In a strange way we were free. We’d reached the end of the line. We had nothing more to lose. Our privacy, our liberty, our dignity: All of this was gone and we were stripped down to the bare bones of our selves.

Mental illness seems to be a communication problem between interpreters one and two.

your brain misfires sometimes causing chaos but that's okay

Emptiness and boredom: what an understatement. What I felt was complete desolation. Desolation, despair, and depression.

:(