I am no longer afraid of spiritual investigation. I’m confident in the end game, which is that God is good and He loves us and He could not possibly be unfair, arbitrary, cold, or abusive. He couldn’t be. It is outside the possibility of His character. It isn’t just that God is loving but that He is love itself. I am so certain of that. I possess full confidence in God but a healthy skepticism of the human understanding of God. (I used to be the opposite, and I miss the days when I knew everything.)
