Paint It All Red (Mindf*ck, #5)

by S.T. Abby

This is for the ones who lost their voice. This is for the ones who wish they could be Lana Myers. This is for the ones people still whisper about. This is for the ones who fight every single day to forget. You’re not alone.

prayed the Boogeyman would come after her, just so she could kill him and end the threat he posed to your life. And you treat her like a monster. Why? Because she kills? Do you treat your military like monsters?

I’m back in survival mode, shutting off everything to keep from drowning in the pain. If I allow myself to feel right now, I’ll never stop crying.

And thank you for accepting me and understanding.

To be wronged is nothing unless you continue to remember it. —Confucius

She’s stronger than you’re giving her credit for, and yeah, maybe I’m a sick motherfucker, but I’m on her side.”

Memory is deceptive because it is colored by today’s events. —Albert Einstein

Fortunately, she doesn’t need me to speak to continue her story.

The two of us walked directly into that trap, unprepared and outmatched, with no chance of walking away. And we never saw it coming, because we never thought people could be that cruel.”

Now I only see the good when it’s there to see. I’m smarter. They made me smarter. They also made me what I am today—lethal and merciless. I have to believe there was a reason for that, and each time I save someone else from the same possible fate I suffered,

It took a storm to offer me a calm.”

That’s not the case at the moment. I hope she fucking kills every last person with a badge who didn’t come to save her when she was left to bleed out.

Any demon is capable of cruelty, but only an angel is majestic enough to rain down vengeance for the innocent. —Marcus Evans