Paint It All Red (Mindf*ck, #5)

by S.T. Abby

Love is not supposed to be beautiful. It’s supposed to be a raw, gritty struggle that forces you to face the most vulnerable parts of yourself, so that when the good times come, you can savor and enjoy them, fully appreciate what they’re worth. Otherwise, you take it all for granted. —Lana Myers

“She loved you. She had two visions of how this would all go. One ended with you loving her as much as she loves you, and you’d stand by her no matter what, feel her pain as if it was your own. Unfortunately, you chose option number two, proving me right, even though I desperately wanted you to prove me wrong.”

In your eyes, it’s better to forever be the victim than to ever feel peace again,

“He doesn’t love me like I love him,” I say hoarsely. “I love him enough to burn the world to the ground in his name.”

“I’m still the twisted monster of the night, while you’re the honest hero in the light.”

But if I hear the details from her mouth, I may end up joining her on her killing spree. I just don’t think I’m strong enough to hear her break down and tell me what they did without killing everyone else involved in all of it.

My mind is fucked. All she has to do is ask me to join her, and I’ll be at her side. So I’m grateful that she doesn’t, because I’m not even sure what to feel about this.

I hope she fucking kills every last person with a badge who didn’t come to save her when she was left to bleed out.

Any demon is capable of cruelty, but only an angel is majestic enough to rain down vengeance for the innocent. —Marcus Evans

I didn’t realize until she was gone that nothing else mattered at all. Nothing I stood for was worth more than her. Nothing I valued held any true value at all. Everything I have is pointless without her.

“As much as I want you to die slowly, I need to show my girl how serious I am about staying with her.

“But your job—” “I left it,” he says, studying my eyes. “And your life—” “Is wherever you are. Guess you shouldn’t have been so perfect if you didn’t want me to love you this much.”

“I decided if I could choose anywhere in the world to be, it’d be wherever you were,”

Life is pretty damn good when you take the time to live it.

I’m fairly positive I’d be the one burning the world down if anyone ever tried to take her from me.