Rest in the Mourning

by R.H. Sin

his words have never matched his actions he’s often let you down he’s always walking away he’s always returning

j

every time you claim to love me i just sit here thinking about all the hateful things you’ve said to me

j

but the good people are tired they’ve grown weary of fighting for relationships that cause them pain no matter how good how kind how patient . . . everyone has a breaking point

i think you’re beautiful it’s more than physical slightly spiritual as i see God in the details of your existence

h

i hate how much pain your heart has known but i’d like a place in whatever space you choose to exist

h

you are not obligated to have sex with someone that you’re in a relationship with dating is not consent marriage is not consent

there’s a swarm of love within me feel like i’m drowning but i like it my feelings growing toward you i’d allow it i won’t fight it

h

i think i entertained you and your bullshit because i loved the feeling of making up i loved that feeling of going to war with you as the enemy and somehow returning with you as my ally i was foolish because i believed that fighting you meant fighting for us and i was wrong so fucking wrong

j

i found the love of my life and in that moment i became my own soul mate

i remember but i no longer care

distance yourself from anyone who robs you of peace and joy

i could never do the things you did to me i could never lower myself to that level my only revenge was replacing you with someone who could love me the right way

raise your sons to be the type of men who refuse to cause pain

women have the right to say no and men have no choice but to respect that